Feb. 7. Sabbath. The weather is fine, but it is not permitted to me to attend church today. And that previous communion service, which can now so seldom be enjoyed by me, I cannot this time enjoy. I am so greatly disappointed, that I know I do not indulge the right feelings. O that I may be able to say from the heart, "Not my will, but thine be done." Only once for nearly three years have I seen the Lord's table. But can I not hold communion with thee, my Saviour, though denied this previous privilege? I feel that I can. O come thou and take up thine a bode in my heart, and fill me with peace! All have attended church this day and evening, but my self and the children. Messrs. Curry and Hunt were here to breakfast, and they took down some bread to use in the communion service. Mrs. Sarah Moore was baptized. As they went home from church, Mr. Walker and the Misses Athearn stopped at the door, but did not come in. Mr. Merchant came to see the Dr. concerning a sick horse of his, and made quite a long call. This evening at the meeting, some of the Methodist church members were in clined, according to their custom, to make a great deal of noise. Sister Susie says there was laughing, shouting, crying, groaning, etc. all during prayer; and these proceedings created a great deal of amusement for some there. I am sure I cannot think such actions proper in church. Why should we wish to make a display of our feelings to others. God looketh on the heart. And it is only with Him that we have to do, and He can read our most secret thoughts, better even than we can know them ourselves. I have been employing my lonely time this evening, in playing on my Eolian. I have not been able to play much on it for a long time. Susan plays quite well. She knows several pieces which I have never before heard. (T.S.R. 38. 2 P.M. 64. S.S. 55.) Feb. 8. Monday. This morning Rev. Mr. Curry called for a few minutes, also an Indian called Jose. This afternoon, Mr. Wiley has made us a long call. I have written a business letter for the Dr. to assist him in a hurry. (T.S.R. 36. 2 P.M. 57. S.S. 50.) Feb. 9. Tuesday. Dr. has been to Stockton today and returned. George has made us a call this evening. (T.S.R. 32. 2 P.M. 57. S.S. 50.) Feb. 10. Wednesday. Today Dr. and Susan have taken a very long horseback ride. They have been down and visited Mr. Lettle field's school. I suppose they rode not much less than twenty miles. Susie, however, does not appear to be greatly fatigued, as I should think she would be. They dined with Mr. Curry's family. Susie is exceedingly fond of horseback riding, as I am. I only lack the required strength, which she does not. Her health is rapidly improving, since she arrived. (T.S.R. 29. 2 P.M. 61. S.S. 55.) I had almost forgotten to mention that my little girl is now eight weeks old. She now sleeps all night without taking any nourishment. Close by my side, in her own bed, she his, and usually she does not wake until about five o'clock, or half past four, when I take her into the bed with me, and nurse her. She weighs twelve and three-fourths pounds, and is very fond of being talked to, and noticed. She has also laughed aloud twice. Feb. 11. Thursday. This afternoon being pleasant, George carried Susan, myself and the children over to E. H.'s to make a visit. I think I have not been there during the last three months, and not having seen Father Locke for that length of time, I was surprised at the change which sickness has wrought in his appearance. He is very thin and emaciated. I do not think he would weigh more than ninety pounds. He sits up most of the day now, and has a very good appetite. We returned home just after sunset. (T.S.R. 32. 2 P.M. 60. S.S. 49.)
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